I am weak. I like to share, but sometimes I talk too much like I am too proud. And sometimes say things in the wrong time and I don’t know that it hurts others feelings. I need to come to God and ask forgivenesses. I am afraid I made a mistake again, I don’t like it when I do, and sometimes it’s hard to realize until I do it again. I am following the path, but I still have a long distance to go.All these topics I am sharing are what I experienced. To be able to experience the truth in God’s words is exciting, but sometimes I still fall off the path and need to get help to get back. I am weak just like everyone.
God is merciful and forgiving. When I make a mistake He tells me I am not kind enough. I feel bad so I feel want to hide away for a while. But when I have that though He says don’t hide, don’t be afraid. I feel guilty when I make a mistake, but God still shows His love and this makes me cry. When I say harsh words to someone, I think I am be honest to show her the mistake she’s made. But even if true, saying it at the wrong time is unkind. God shows me that acting like this is moving away from light of the spirit. Without the light the world is swallowed by the darkness. I don’t like what I see in the darkness. I feel deeply sorry for what I said wrong. This time before I hide away, He shows His love by guiding me back to the path.
What I am trying to say here is don’t be discouraged by what I wrote. Walking the path needs some effort and courage to stay alert. But when we do so, God will be close by and guide us. This doesn’t means God does not love those who are not walking the path. When we are busy in our world all the time we tend to not pay attention to His existence. He is there, we just need to face Him, know how to feel His existence. Then He will be in your life with you.
Glorified art Thou, O Lord my God! I beseech Thee by Thy Chosen Ones, and by the Bearers of Thy Trust, and by Him Whom Thou hast ordained to be the Seal of Thy Prophets and of Thy Messengers, to let Thy remembrance be my companion, and Thy love my aim, and Thy face my goal, and Thy name my lamp, and Thy wish my desire, and Thy pleasure my delight.
I am a sinner, O my Lord, and Thou art the Ever-Forgiving. As soon as I recognized Thee, I hastened to attain the exalted court of Thy loving-kindness. Forgive me, O my Lord, my sin which have hindered me from walking in the ways of Thy good pleasure, and from attaining the shores of the ocean of Thy oneness.
There is no one, O my Lord, who can deal bountifully with me to whom I can turn my face, and non who can have compassion on me that I may crave his mercy. Cast me not out, I implore Thee, of the presence of Thy Grace, neither do Thou withhold from me the outpourings of Thy generosity and bounty. Ordain for me, O my Lord, what Thou hast ordained for them that love Thee, and write down for me what Thou hast written down for Thy chosen ones. My gaze hath, at all times, been fixed on the horizon of Thy gracious providence, and mine eyes bent upon the court of Thy tender mercies. Do with me as beseemeth Thee. No God is there but Thee, the God of power, the God of glory, Whose help is implored by all men.
(~ Baha’u’llah, a Baha’i prayer)